Not analyzing every twinge? Not poking my boobs to see if they are more sore than normal? Not CONSTANTLY thinking “is this it !?!”.
This has been the first cycle in a while where I haven’t been obsessed about the possibility of being pregnant. After we received E’s news I have been so focused on the fact that we probably wont get pregnant on our own that this 2ww has been kind of liberating. I am watching my calendar and should expect AF in 5 days but I truly dont believe that I could be pregnant so I haven’t even thought about possibly testing or “looking” for signs.
I’m not sure if I am happy about this or not… the 2ww is horrible when trying to figure it out if something is actually going to happen THIS time. It has been nice not going crazy but I am worried that means I have lost hope.