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Motherhood after Infertility and Parenting a child with ASD

Cool breezes and happy thoughts

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This week has been difficult with my morning walks and when I say difficult, I mean I have not been going. My alarm goes off at the same time, I get up, go to the bathroom and instead of putting my yoga pants on and taking care of the dogs then heading out the door for my walk I get right back in bed for the next twenty minutes. I have been so tired and have had so little motivation. Every day I have been beating myself up for not going in the morning. 

This morning wasn’t so different. I still really did not want to go. I got up, went to the bathroom and laid back down but was only there about 30 seconds when one of the pups started crying so I got up and got all the dogs out. I stepped outside and was hit with the most amazing weather. It has been SO hot here and I have been hoping that we would get a taste of fall. This morning was 63 degrees with a small breeze. It felt amazing. Even though I was running a little late, I quickly fed the dogs, put my sneakers on, stretched and left the house. My walk was awesome. The weather was just perfect. I enjoyed every second of it. It gave me a sense of euphoria and had me thinking about what it would be like to have a baby during the fall and all the holidays around that time of year. I didn’t get sad, it was all just hope and the thought of how happy I would be. 

I have dreams of the weather staying this way but its only suppose to for a couple days and then we will go back to the warm weather but you better believe I am going to enjoy every second of it while it lasts until it actually becomes Fall. 🙂

In other news, I am still spotting… I am either on CD 6 or CD 27. I am still confused as to if I should have started over counting so I am just going to continue with both until something happens. It’s frustrating.

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