"Life's under no obligation to give us what we expect.”

Motherhood after Infertility and Parenting a child with ASD



We are exactly two weeks till our RE appointment. Just two more weeks. My 10 days of clot/spotting turned into a full blown AF on sunday so I am enjoying the grossness that comes along with all of that. The only good thing about that is that I will be able to start my next cycle after the RE appointment sooner than originally planned. I am sure that will just mean more testing but I wont have to wait a crazy long time, just a regular long time ;).

We have 4 dogs who I consider to be my children. They are a part of me and I love them dearly. I will say that I “like” some more than others but they are all mine and are all spoiled rotten. I call them my babies and E and I refer to eachother as ‘mom’ and ‘dad’ when talking to them. One of our oldest is sick and it may be cancer. He has stopped eating in the morning and has some serious GI problems. He has become pretty listless and doesnt have the same spunk as he use to. 

We took him to the vet and she ran a whole slew of blood work. It came back that he was losing blood and a fairly large amount. His red blood cell count came back at 29% and she said that they do emergency transfusions at 20% 😦 Since he isnt throwing blood up or pooping it out he is obviously loosing it internally. He also has a serious infection. She put him on an antibiotic and something to help soothe his stomach so maybe he would eat but so far he is no better. Our next steps would be an ultrasound of his belly to see where the blood is going. This is really E’s dog and he is taking it especially hard.

Seeing him continue to deteriorate has been somewhat eye opening in the form of  the fact that I may not have been paying as much attention to the “babies” I have because of the baby I want to carry in my belly and hold in my arms. Two of my furkids are well into their mature ages and now one of them also may have cancer and we may be putting him down in the near future. I need to look more at what I have and the overflowing love that these adorable animals give me. They are amazing little creatures and know nothing but love when it comes to me. I get showered with kisses and they always want to be in my lap or just simply be in the same room with me when they have an extra 3200 square feet of house they could lounge in.

I need to remember to not lose the things I have over something that I have yet to obtain. If you have some extra good thoughts to spare, please send them to my sick boy. We both could use it.

4 thoughts on “Perspective

  1. The loss of a pet can be truly devastating… thinking of you xxx

  2. Thinking about you and you furbaby. I hope you are all able to find peace with whatever is happening to him.

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