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Motherhood after Infertility and Parenting a child with ASD

Adjusting to the new normal

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It has been 5 days since we lost Petey and it is still so fresh. I was finally able to tell my mother about how everything went on Saturday when we put him down without being so hysterical that she couldnt understand me. I miss him so much. The house isn’t the same without him in it. The other dogs are starting to adjust without him. They are looking for him less and less and seem to be adapting just fine. I still expect to turn around in the middle of my work day and see him sprawled out in the middle of the room or snuggling on the chair with atleast one of the other dogs.

This is probably one of my favorite pictures I took one day when I was working. He is the big boy in the middle 🙂

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It’s weird only filling 3 food bowls. It’s weird putting the little ones out back and not seeing my big boy follow them around. It’s weird that his ottoman is empty all the time (yes, he had an entire ottoman to himself, not just a dog bed). I miss his big head greeting me at the door and his incredibly strong tail hitting me and causing bruises on my thigh because he was so happy about something. I miss him smiling (he would lift his lips and show his front teeth) and bringing me a toy when he was so excited. I just overall miss him dearly. I hope he is in peace and resting comfortable, cancer free.

Adjusting to the new normal around here hasn’t been easy but each day the pain heals a little bit more.

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