I have felt so out this cycle. Like we just spent $750 on a next step toward IVF and not that this actually has a chance. I have had zero symptoms from the HCG injection this cycle and have felt absolutely 100% normal.
I have somehow, miraculously, been sleeping through the night till about 5am when I wake up having to pee so badly I can barely make it to the bathroom but I know it is not a restful sleep because I wake up tired. But seriously I have had no symptoms and have been really good about ignoring anything that could be a symptom. Symptom spotting has been non-existent in this household and I have been pretty proud about that 😀 That is, until last night/this morning…
Last night E came home and we sat down to eat. I was in a relatively good mood. As good a mood as any after a days worth of work, being a wednesday and cooking dinner. Definitely not a bad mood. Well we were sitting eating and just talking about our days when something inside me just switched. I turned into mega-bitch. We finished eating in silence I did the dishes and cleaned the kitchen then went to sit down on the couch until we went upstairs for bed. I was sitting there for 10 minutes tops when I couldn’t stand it anymore and I wanted to tear E’s head off. He didn’t do or say anything so I knew something was going on and instead of creating an unnecessary fight I excused myself and went upstairs so I didn’t say or do anything I would regret. I woke up this morning in a better mood… who knows what that is all about???
That brings me to this morning. I am 6DPIUI and when I went to the bathroom around 7am it looked like there was a tint to what was on the toilet paper. I wasn’t sure what I was seeing so I checked my CM and sure enough it had a brown tinge to it! All I could scream in my head is “COULD THIS BE IMPLANTATION BLEEDING?!?!” I have gone to the bathroom a couple times since and all is clear. I really hope I wasn’t hallucinating and that it could be a good sign. I feel like I have had some cramping/fullness last night and today but now I am not sure if I am conjuring/imagining them or if they are really there.
Needless to say, the past 5 days of being really good about symptom spotting are out the window and I am just going to have to prepare to be crazy for the next 8 days until I test 😉