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Motherhood after Infertility and Parenting a child with ASD

One week


One week until our first RE appointment for baby number 2. E is going for his semen analysis today in hopes that we will have the results back by the time of my appointment. So much is swirling through my mind…

  • How are his SA numbers going to look? Will they be as bad as the first time around? Would they be BETTER? It takes about 2 months to see a change in sperm if something is wrong… that wait would be hell if nothing else stands in our way.
  • What will the doctor say about me? What sort of testing am I going to have to go through again?
  • Could I be pregnant naturally? CD 32 will fall on my appointment day and the past 2-3 days I have had so much lower belly fullness, slight crampy feelings and increased urination. Of course once I feel a tiny bit of something I think that there is a possibility and I am sure my mind conjures these real-life symptoms just to fuck with me.

I have said in the past that I am no where near as nervous about TTC this time around just because I know what to expect but now that my appointment is just a week away, the nerves are starting to emerge.

2 thoughts on “One week

  1. Aw poor gal! I can only imagine how strange the second time around would be. Thinking of you and hoping this time it’s easier.

    …. I too have daydreams where we go to the clinic for no 2 and I’m preggers naturally 😜

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