This one fucking hurts. I have had some strange feelings the last few days and really got my hopes up. E was convinced this was our cycle and kept telling me he had a good feeling.
I woke up this morning anxious to test at 4:30am but before I could even dip the stick into my tiny cup of pee I knew we were out. I was spotting. I tested anyways since it was just an internet cheapie and of course it was negative.
I am heartbroken. We got pregnant on our third IUI with G and I thought for sure it wouldn’t take LONGER the second time around. I don’t even know what to do now. We are swimming in debt and our insurance pays a small portion of the procedures but only for 3 IUI’s. We have to have 6 failed IUI’s before we can move to IVF through insurance so what the fuck do we do now? Take a few months off and wait till our house sells so we wont be paying 2 mortgages AND infertility bills? Jump right into another cycle? I am seriously at a loss and just want to curl up in a ball and cry.