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Motherhood after Infertility and Parenting a child with ASD



The past two days have been weird. Finding out I am pregnant after my miscarriage and that it happened on our own, after 7 years, is a lot to process. My beta was so strong on Monday that there was no disputing it but there still is the off chance that it’s a terrible number based on what dpo I am. I am trying to think positively since I am quite confident as to when conception occurred.

My number today needed to be at least 662 for me to feel comfortable. That would be exactly 48 hour doubling time.

I woke up this morning at 1:45am with a very full bladder. I made it a full 15 minutes until I couldn’t take it anymore. I was strong yesterday and didn’t test but knew I wouldn’t be able to resist today. 2am only made it a 4 hour hold and the alarm goes off at 5:30 so I had to test then. I am happy to say that the test line is darker than the control line which made going into this morning’s beta a little less stressful. Also, I have been queasy off and on since I woke up so I am hoping this is a good sign.

Waiting for the phone call each time doesn’t get any easier. They give you a window of calling between 1 and 4 and each minute that passed caused me to become more and more nervous. My stomach was a jumping bean and I couldn’t even remotely begin to focus on anything work related.

At 2:08pm the phone rings. Conversation went a little like this:

Nurse: Well, everything looks great!

Me: Ok, what’s my number?

Nurse: 919.8

Me: Are you serious?!?!

Nurse: Yup! When can we get your ultrasound scheduled?

I am so incredibly shocked, happy, and beyond nervous. That’s a 32.55 doubling time!! Ultrasound is tentatively schedule for Halloween morning and it’s a waiting game until then. I called E immediately and he’s finally starting to feel a little bit excited. The next few weeks are going to be a crazy roller coaster of emotions but I am hoping and praying this is our rainbow baby.

9 thoughts on “Confirmation

  1. Awesome news! I’ve been checking my reader every so often waiting for your update. I’m so glad you have such a strong number!! 🙂

  2. Such a miracle! 🌈

  3. Amazing news!! Congratulations!! ❤️ hoping for an uneventful couple weeks for you until Halloween!

  4. That’s so great!! Maybe you have twins in there?? ❤

  5. Thank you for sharing! Having had 5 miscarriages, years of infertility, 1 rainbow baby, and 1 rainbow baby on the way….been there! Hugs. Not enough women are speaking about this so called taboo topic. Thanks for speaking. Would you ever so humbly consider following me so that we can help each other spread hope to women? Thanks in advance!

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