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Motherhood after Infertility and Parenting a child with ASD


6 months


I blinked and you’re six months old. I honestly don’t know how it’s possible. Days fly by while most nights still drag on but each day you are older, stronger, and more determined to grow up as fast as you possibly can. You’ve been rolling from back to front and front to back for 2 months now and you are so determined to crawl, I know it’s going to be any time now.

You’ve begun to be a bit clingy and I selfishly love it just a little. You get SO excited to see me when I walk into a room; you kick your little legs, wave your arms and plaster this huge smile on your face. Hits me right in the heart every single time.

The pediatrician told me we could start solids at your 4 month visit and so we started when you were about 4.5 months old. You absolutely love food (even your teachers at daycare tell me just how much you love it) and took to it so quickly. You now eat 3 meals a day in addition to 5 bottles… it’s no wonder you’re just a chunk. I love kissing your adorable leg rolls!!

Watching you play is so entertaining. You love all toys and are putting anything possible in your mouth. Teething has begun which has made you a bit grumpy but between your paci, constantly moving around with you, toys, and Tylenol we are powering through!

I think one of the things I love most about watching you get older and more engaging is just how much you love your brother. All G has to do is look at you and you smile. At night before you both get into the bath, we run around holding you, chasing G. This very well may be the favorite part of your day! You just crack up laughing as we try to catch G and G thinks it’s hilarious as well. Then in the bath you both play with toys and G sometimes blows zurberts on your feet or tickles your belly. You look at him like he has hung the moon and it’s absolutely so precious. I hope you two always continue to love each other as much as you do now.

Sleeping is still a bit of a challenge with you. The 4-month sleep regression hit hard and at this point if you only wake up once a night it’s a huge success. Typically, we are at 2-5 times per night that you’re awake and we are definitely feeling the affects but I am hopeful in the next month or two you’ll really be able to find your paci’s in bed by yourself and things will start getting better. You barely nap at school which means you’re exhausted when I pick you up and are still taking a short nap in the late evening which I am sure doesn’t help but your little body just can’t handle such little sleep!!

I do wish you were a tad bit cuddlier. At night, after we put your pajamas on and read our books all I want to do is cuddle, rock and sing to you but by this time you are very much ready to just be put down and go to sleep. I typically make you stay in my arms for at least one verse of “good night sweetheart” but then oblige and lay you down. You then kick your legs happily as I lay your favorite blanket over you to which you quickly bring it to your face, roll over on your side and cuddle with it until you peacefully fall asleep. I could watch you sleeping for eternity.

All in all, you are an amazing baby. You go with the flow more so than not and are just happy to be with mommy (as long as you have a full belly)! I love making you laugh and watching your brow furrow as you look at something or someone for the first time. You’re just incredible and I love you so much.

I can’t wait to see what the next few months brings and all the exciting new things you will be doing.

I love you,